My Monday Insight

With a little less than a month until I reach the anniversary of my surgery and all which it entailed, I have been feeling extremely anxious and confused. I am trying to learn from the experience in hopes to learn and never repeat. So much has happened in the past year medically that has shown to myself how strong and resilient I can be. I have felt the darkest depression I have ever known, the deepest regret, and the deepest sadness. I had also felt great honor, pride, and genuine euphoria. I experienced the feeling of defeat and lose of hope but I also know the empowering sense of struggle and drive to never give up for fear of it happening again. I understand the agony of not being able to do the simplest of task, and the sense of pride in achievement of something not done before. I have a greater respect to the capacity of friendships and the willingness of strangers to do something for someone they had never known before. I have learned some insight into the frailty of the human condition and the tangibility of Buy cialis pills the human spirit.

As I have been doing some insightful soul-searching and generalized research, I have come to realize a traumatic event does not doom us in our life indefinitely, sometimes it is a spring-board to something else. A lot of talk goes on about Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome, but not much into this idea of Post Traumatic growth, which the five conceptual realizations of which are.

1. My Priorities have changed, I’m not afraid to do what makes me happy

2. I feel closer to my friends and family

3. I understand my self better, I know who I really am now

4. I have a new sense of meaning and purpose

5. I am better able to focus on my dreams and goals

Where I have cialis online not come as far with this list as I may have thought on my good days, I have gotten much farther than I thought I would on my bad day’s. I still have much to figure out but have learned so much and chalk that up to decent insight of personal growth. If nothing else I have learned a remarkable and freeing attitude towards that which I have no control over this past year.

Life is neither inherently good nor bad, it merely IS what it IS.

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Where Do We Stand in 2014?

With the new year upon us I think it is a reasonable assumption to ask how things are and guess where things are going. So where does EMS stand as an organization, a career, a profession and an industry as we begin 2014? Simple enough question, yet as with any thing in life, not easily answered. Least not Buy cialis drugs with any amount of certainty or predictability. So where do I see EMS in this next year? Well unlike a lot of the negative Nancy’s out there, I think EMS is actually getting better. Becoming more important role in the ever changing medical system which is developing in this nation. Granted I may be wearing rose-colored glasses due to where I work and the mentality that surrounds me but there is a lot of great things happening if we are open enough to see them.

I think EMS will remain a fairly stable job through 2014, with increasing use and “need” job security has got to be at an all time high. Sure there has been bankruptcy problems and other news of shops closing up in recent past but all in all the industry remains growing to meet the demand. I think this year will also be one of technology continuing to advance at a drastic pace and be ever incorporated into everyday EMS use. Tech that helps advance scope of practice to ones which advance the career span of us providers, a larger and more robust offering of these technologies will no doubt be implemented through out our ranks. Lastly, I think 2014 will be a year where leadership and nurturing of the young new provider’s is more widely accepted than the “eat generic cialis best our young” mentality.

One thing which I do not think will be of strong focus will be the human factor of our patient’s. Having been on the other side this past year I was able to gain an interesting perspective into EMS and health care as a whole. Some times in the mix of all that the call entails we lose the fact that the patient is a person. We go at them as if they are a complaint, an illness, a condition in need of diagnosis and treatment, or frankly a pain in the ass. Yet while we attempt to fix the ailments brought forth to us in vast quantities and in the limited amounts of time; this idea that they may be scared or nervous can easily be lost on us. The fact that they are human with worries, insecurities, and fears may never cross our mind when we as providers have to get the IV, interpret the 12-lead and intervene appropriately, bandage the wounds, try not to be exposed to any of the hazards of the job let alone figure out how we will even get a patient to our ambulance. It may not be excusable but it could be understandable as to why it occurs. Unfortunately I don’t think there will be any kind of emphasis on increased customer service or interpersonal skills advancement with in this next year.

Sure it is hard to incorporate every little detail but sometimes it is the smallest one that can make a world of difference. We may never see the physical response let alone the psychological ones of taking a few moments to actually converse and interacted with a human being can have. It may not be the coolest or most shiny thing EMS has to offer but it is one I think we can try to make a higher focus and make EMS that much better


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4 Years Ago Today


After struggling with infertility for four years I thought that we were never going to be parents. Then on May 5th 2009 I found out we were pregnant! 9 months later on December 30th the second love of my life was born. I never knew my heart was capable of so much love until I set my eyes on this little blond hair blue eyed cutie.  Buy Cheapest Viagra Canadian DrugStore Thankful doesn’t even begin to cover how I felt then or now.  I love our little fluke more than words ♡ Myles Paul you were so worth the wait.  I can not believe you are four years old!

Taken from my wife’s Facebook, and I would just like to add Ditto

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On This Christmas Eve

As you may be nestled up under your snuggie next to the fire sipping on some hot cocoa or spending time with family and friends on this Christmas Eve just remember there are countless folks sacrificing time from the ones they love to be ready to serve and protect you and yours if the situation arises.

To all those on shift be safe tonight and let us all go home.

Now for your indulgence One of the oldest and most popular Christmas poems ever

 ‘Twas the night before Christmas, when all thro’ the house,
Not a creature was stirring, not even a mouse;
The stockings were hung by the chimney with care,
In hopes that St. Nicholas soon would be there;
The children were nestled all snug in their beds,
While visions of sugar plums danc’d in their heads,
And Mama in her ‘kerchief, and I in my cap,
Had just settled our brains for a long winter’s nap-
When out on the lawn there arose such a clatter,
I sprang from the bed to see what was the matter.
Away to the window I flew like a flash,
Tore open the shutters, and threw up the sash.
The moon on the breast of the new fallen snow,
Gave the lustre of mid-day to objects below;
When, what to my wondering eyes should appear,
But a minature sleigh, and eight tiny rein-deer,
With a little old driver, so lively and quick,
I knew in a moment it must be St. Nick.
More rapid than eagles his coursers they came,
And he whistled, and shouted, and call’d them by name:
“Now! Dasher, now! Dancer, now! Prancer, and Vixen,
“On! Comet, on! Cupid, on! Dunder and Blixem;
“To the top of the porch! to the top of the wall!
“Now dash away! dash away! dash away all!”
As dry leaves before the wild hurricane fly,
When they meet with an obstacle, mount to the sky;
So up to the house-top the coursers they flew,
With the sleigh full of Toys – and St. Nicholas too:
And then in a twinkling, I heard on the roof
The prancing and pawing of each little hoof.
As I drew in my head, and was turning around,
Down the chimney St. Nicholas came with a bound:
He was dress’d all in fur, from his head to his foot,
And his clothes were all tarnish’d with ashes and soot;
A bundle of toys was flung on his back,
And he look’d like a peddler just opening his pack:
His eyes – how they twinkled! his dimples how merry,
His cheeks were like roses, his nose like a cherry;
His droll little mouth was drawn up like a bow,
And the beard of his chin was as white as the snow;
The stump of a pipe he held tight in his teeth,
And the smoke it encircled his head like a wreath.
He had a broad face, and a little round belly
That shook when he laugh’d, like a bowl full of jelly:
He was chubby and plump, a right jolly old elf,
And I laugh’d when I saw him generic viagra 100mg in spite of myself;
A wink of his eye and a twist of his head
Soon gave me to know I had nothing to dread.
He spoke not a word, but went straight to his work,
And fill’d all the stockings; then turn’d with a jerk,
And laying his finger aside of his nose
And giving a nod, up the chimney he rose.
He sprung to his sleigh, to his team gave a whistle,
And away they all flew, like the down of a thistle:
But I heard him exclaim, ere he drove out of sight-
Happy Christmas to all, and to all a good night.

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Maybe I’m An Over Achiever?

A little less than two weeks ago I wrote about battening down in an attempt to achieve a loss of a few pound. It wasn’t much weight, six pounds in two weeks, but it was more about the bench mark of being under 300lbs I was striving for.


So with yesterday’s weigh in, on the eve of the seven month mark, I accomplished what I set out to do with four days to spare. It is the culmination of hard work, determination and a lot of sweat. It is also a total buy viagra today of 87 pounds which I continue to down play, and am not the most forth coming in being proud towards this accomplishment. It is not to say I am not very happy with it, because I am. But let me be brutally honest here, it was from years of destructively self abusive habits which has led me in someway to this point. I accept the praise of people as a courtesy but to truly be proud feels somehow an injustice to me, if that makes any sense. I am still struggling through and trying to feel comfortable with where I am and where I can continue to head.

For now I am going to celebrate the way which seems only fit, continue with doing what has gotten me this far.

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